Change is good, but sometimes that’s hard to admit.
I found this to be incredibly true as I sat in my car crying over the weekend.
Maybe I sound like a big baby, but the excitement of being out on my own has worn off and I’m slowly starting to realize how difficult being out in the real world can sometimes be.
I’m not only being faced with huge decisions on a regular basis, but I’m also having to be certain I’m making the most mature, respectful and beneficial decisions. This isn’t always an easy task, especially when my parents aren’t around at all hours of the day to steer me in the right direction.
For the most part I do OK with change and I generally advocate for it, but there are other times when I just need to break down, let it all go and start over from point A.
After a good little cry and a talk with a friend, I was able to relax and reflect on all the good changes that seem to be overshadowed by the often shocking realities of being an adult.
Some of these positive changes include a new diet and exercise regimen I started at the beginning of the year, a new pet that requires a lot of attention and gives unconditional love, the start of a new month where we will be celebrating Valentine’s Day and the redesign of the newspaper.
I have all of these things to look forward to. Some of these changes are efforts to reach a goal, while others are directed at filling a void in my life or wanting to help another living thing out.
My weight loss goal is huge for me. Last year I lost approximately 30 pounds before I found it difficult to keep up with the dieting and exercising. This year I hope to have a little more dedication. I know one thing is for sure: there’s nothing like being able to fit into a smaller size. I cried a little (alright I’m just an emotional person) when I was able to purchase a size of jeans I hadn’t worn since before high school.
I’m really excited about Valentine’s Day because I love all the flowers and candies. I guess I should be steering clear of the chocolate covered strawberries this year, though. I guess some changes conflict with one another.
I’m still learning all that a pet requires… It’s a little weird not being able to just pick up and leave whenever I feel like it. I have to make sure he’s fed and watered and has plenty of extra to last him while I’m out of the house. Maybe this change is preparing me for the huge change of having children (someday in the VERY distant future).
And, about the redesign. I’ve been really excited about this for a long time. I hope you guys like the new look and the new (or revived) features like the question of the week.
Sometimes change can really hurt, but I’m finding the little bit of pain is preparing me for all the good things I have to look forward to.